Bruce’s Ministry

Still Struggling – Answer

Posted by Bruce Norton on Jun 17 2009

I want to thank you for praying for me to find wisdom and discernment regarding this blog.  Through the people God has put into my life He has given me some clarity.

We all agreed that if my motivation for this blog was, "here I am take me or leave me as I am," or "I have the answers," or "my way is the only way," that it would be a blog that is deep in pride.  But that is not my motivation.  My motivation is for you to follow my struggles and how God works in my life.  It is written in the hopes that God will use me and this blog to reveal things to you he wants revealed. 

The issues my mentors had was my using this blog as my journal.  Their impression was that if I have to involve you that my motivation must be because it elevates me to help you.  And that is pride.  I agree with them that if that was my motivation it would indeed be very prideful. 

The truth is that I don’t enjoy writing with pen or pencil and paper very much.  Quite honestly, it takes more effort for me to do that and my writing is not very legible anyway.  So, I prefer to type when I write.  My thought was that if I am typing it anyway, I might as well share it with others.  The reality is that my posts on this blog are written, then proof read, then corrected before I publish them. 

A journal is different though.  Since it is not intended for others to see, it can simply be a rambling list of thoughts or questions.  It doesn’t necessarily have a beginning and an end to the thought.  Much of what is written is not resolved, or if it is it is not resolved right away.  Through my mentors God has revealed to me the importance of a journal.  And even though I am still typing it, I am not keeping a separate journal. 

It is through your prayers, the Holy Spirit opening my eyes to the truth, and God using people in my life to reveal what he wants me to see that I have learned this. 

Thank you and God bless you.

Bruce..